Angela Wrate
Director
11 posts
Sep 04, 2008
1:37 PM
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Hi everyone ,hope you are all well
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I just thought it might be good to see how we have managed our day.You may have been out or having a day with family , on your own. Crying, or just not dealing with everday tasks as you used to. It may be that you are new to this site and have recently lost a loved one. OR its that time Birthdays, Angel dates any thing that brings on the blues.
Perhaps you would like to share it with us here.
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Dessa
Guest
Sep 08, 2008
7:44 AM
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Hi it's Monday morning so far so good. A few tears this morning when I talked to my sister. But thank God for her. I always start my day with prayers for our angels and families. love you all. Dessa Joseph's mom
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Sharon/Jenny's Mom
Guest
Sep 19, 2008
8:36 AM
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Today I was suppose to go to a funeral for the husband of our HR director. Last minute I just couldn't bring myself to going. It was in the city they expect over 1000 people and selfishly right now I just don't think I can put myself through that. With all the emotions the fall brings and the upcoming wedding I just felt this may have been too much. Sometimes as selfish as it seems we just need to take care of ourselves.
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Angela nickys mum
Guest
Sep 19, 2008
5:55 PM
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Sharon you are not selfish, you are just protecting how you are able to cope . I have not had to deal with any deaths since Nicky died.
However my biggest fear is, what if another family member were to die how would i cope? I too feel that this is a selfish attitude , however it is also a coping mechanisam. I honestly do not know how my fragile mind and body would cope with another death. I am dreading that time.
I can honestly say that when i look at angel families and see new people who have passed, i sometimes have to switch my pc off as i can not bare to look at their once happy faces. I just hope you have a lovely day when your daughter gets married.
Jenny will be their in spirit form i just know our angels are with us.
hugs Angela xx
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nicholas greens mom
Guest
Sep 28, 2008
5:48 PM
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Hello everyone I am sorry i dont light many candles anymore.I just feel so lost most of the time the tears come so fast.Do you all feel like life is really over now?I dont want to work or do anything i want to never leave the house.I still go almost every day to the cemetary.I miss him so much i cant hardly breath.When i dream of my Nick he is always a little boy again.When i talk about him everyone hjust tries to chang the subject and that makes me so mad.I dont understand why a mother has to go through this.We want them back so bad.It has been 4yrsan 3months and it does not get easier it hurts just as much,i get so mad i cant do somthing but i caant do anything but wait to see him again.Robin Green Nicks mom
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Angela nickys mum
Guest
Sep 29, 2008
3:44 AM
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Hi Robin.
I just thought you would like a bit of feed back to your comment.
You are not alone.
Talking for myself ,the last 3 years have been the worst of my life. yes i go to work i do very little indoors, both myself and my husband are not the same people, life is one big effort.
I hate September, however like yourself i just have to get through it, how sometimes i wonder but we do.
I really envy others who can cope better with bereavment than myself.
Yes i can take pills go to therapy or any thing else but for me i know this route at this present time will not help.
I have been away on holiday and did enjoy it .
However sometimes i know it is a distraction and i will have to go home to my thoughts and life.
As for lighting candles. i do not do the lighting like i used to.
Sometimes i feel real gulity and understand why so few lite for my nicky on his site.
But this is the real world and i know that one doese not give to recieve.
Isolation i have also been doing .I have let my friends go as i do not see them anymore.
However i have started going to a spiratual group who are so undemanding.
so for the last 2 weeks i have made myself go out.
I rarely see my family anymore.in others word i am a sad person.
Every day i think oh god i am still here. (Why)
Every day i wish to have my baby back He was 29 years old but still my baby.
so i understand your remernisance of the past.
It is our saftey net memorys of kinder happier times
when we wre sfae as a family and happy .
all other worries are not the same as a death.
So Robin i am here if you are feeling low your child will always be loved and remembered because he had you and still does.
I like the spiratual path as they talk about loved ones who have departed and say they are with us in everday tasks not forgotton...
Hugs to you love Angela xx
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Diane-Angel Katie
Guest
Sep 29, 2008
8:25 AM
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It's Mon. Sept. 29th, not doing well!!
Our Katie Kates Birthday is Sat., Oct. 4th., she'd be 23.
Unfortuately a you all know everyday is so heartbreaking!!
Birthday's even rougher!!
May 18, 2008 was three years, it just seems to be getting harder and harder each and everyday, missing her more and more!!
Please keep our family in your prayers, her birthday is approaching quickly!!
Thank you!!
Thoughts & Prayers!!
Diane Angel Mom ~ Katie Cassidy
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guest
Guest
Sep 29, 2008
10:24 AM
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Today is a hard day for me I can't stop crying.
It helps to know I'm not alone in my greif and heart break.
Angel Families Online is so beautiful
God Bless all of you
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Anonymous
Guest
Sep 29, 2008
12:56 PM
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Hi guest.
I hope you feel this big hug comming to you.
Crying is so emotianal and draining .
You are not alone your angel is beside you and so are we her at angel families.
blessings xx
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jeannie mazur
Guest
Sep 29, 2008
3:31 PM
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today is a very hard day iam so tired of being alone. i no i didnt push anyone out of my live they left me when i was in the pits. i was always so strong and loved life, and work. no my health is gonna, and i dont leave to much. and i just have no one to talk to. so i went and bought another journal. and i guess ill just write in it. so alone and hurting
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Judie Smart
Guest
Sep 29, 2008
9:52 PM
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I have been trying to regroup.....from My Mother-In-Law's funeral and all the days leading up to it.....It has just been so mentally draining.
I worry about my husband and children so much that it makes me physicaly ill.
The best thing for me is keeping busy....the minute I have time to think, especially now that it is Fall...It was Craig's favorite time of year and of course we all hate the onset of the upcoming Holidays....I start to spiral into a depression.Let's keep each other lifted up in prayer...that is all I know to do! My heart breaks for each of you as I read your entries and know your individual circumstances.... P.S Thank you Angela for your Faithfulness to our group and for always knowing what to say to help us open up...You are a Blessing to all of us! Love You
Judie
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Nick Greens mom
Guest
Sep 30, 2008
6:38 PM
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I know we all are heartbroken,I read this somewhere its like only having one lung and trying to get our breaths.Me and my husband are just shells our relationship is like a empty well now.I live now for my beautiful daughter.Even though she has to worry about me so much.My health has went all to pieces I was seeing a therapist but stopped going i have to take so many meds now just to try to survive.I am mad so mad.I just want to hit somthing every minute.We all have to live now in this so called life now.Im sorry im just going an going but i know you all feel just like me MAD. Thanks for listening God bless you all my angel family
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Anonymous
Guest
Oct 01, 2008
4:43 AM
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Hi Robin.
You are not mad just sad.............
Yes every day is hard and relationships can be tiring.
sometimes this is because none of us can cope with our grief.
You see every one wants every thing put back to how it used to be!
How can it be...........
I do think at times that us mums talk and express how we feel, but men or most men ,find this subject very hard.
Just look on the Angel site or other sites How many dads lite candles or express their grief.
But look at us mum's.
Perhaps it is differnt my husband says it is not he loves and misses his son so much.
not a day goes by however he says that he does not have to put this on a site to let others no.
Perhaps he has a point.
for me it helps a nd having every one here to chat to about our feelings also helps . but perhaps it is not for everyone.
On e has to try a lot harder after death just to be that person you used to be.
I no i am just a sad old lady now who doese try when the days are right to at least have some motavation at trying to have positive thoughts.
Then on others it all goese down the drain.
You see Robin you are truly not Mad just relistic you know that pain that only us mums and people who have lost someone so close to them can only ever understand.
Together we will try and get through.
Hugs and blessings Angela nickys mum xx
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Anonymous
Guest
Oct 03, 2008
9:54 PM
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Happy birthday Katy Kates!! Diane, I am thinking of you and your family today. My angel son, Christopher would be 23 on the 22nd of October. His angel date is April 15, 2005. I am so sorry for all of us parents who endure the loss of our child(ren) and continue on, even though we don't know how we do it. May God continue to hold each of us in His loving arms. Thank you for this wonderful site!! Connie
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Dessa
Guest
Oct 06, 2008
4:21 AM
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Robin your life sounds just like mine my husband and I are just here doing the routine for our children just a shell. We hide it well but you know exactly how our day is going to be. My health has also went down hill. I am scared to take medications I don't know why maybe they would help I just don't know. Dessa
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Sharon/Jenny's Mom
Guest
Oct 07, 2008
10:40 AM
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Another sad day. Yesterday a woman we know from church was killed in an accident. She was the woman who also led the Misson's trip to Uganda my future son-in-law went to this summer. It's going to be a bitter/sweet week. Our oldest daughter gets married on Saturday, what would have been Jenny's 22nd birthday is Sunday and somewhere inbetween will be a funeral. I don't know how to feel. I'm still in shock. If you think of it please say an extra prayer for us this week. Thanks! HUGS
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Dessa
Guest
Oct 07, 2008
11:47 AM
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Sharon I am so sorry I am holding you up in my prayers. Hugs Dessa Joseph's mom
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Nick Greens mom
Guest
Oct 08, 2008
10:52 AM
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Dessa I would not be able to cope if i wasnt on meds i went in the hospital with a complete breakdown 3years ago and was put on meds then.If i forget to take them i cant stop crying,they have saved me.As for me and Nicks dad we just are a shell too. its a terrible thing we all have to deal with.He dont go to the cemetary i try to go everyday.When i ask him to go up there he wont.I feel like thats all i have left i can do for Nick is to make sure everything at the cemetary is always clean and neat.We are all just hurting so bad.Take care Robin Nicks mom
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Angel Katie Cassidy
Guest
Oct 14, 2008
8:44 AM
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Doing as okay today as possible missing my babygirl!!
Our Katie Kates Birthday was October 4th, she'd be 23.
Not looking forward to all the holidays that are quickly approaching!!
As all of you know there all rough!!
Last Christmas eve and Christmas day was the worst one since my beautiful Daughter went to Heaven.
It was the 3rd one and almost unbearable!!
All of them have been horrible but 2007 I can't even describe in words how much worse it was!!
Then New Years even worse!!
I'm concerned about this year!!
Last year was so horrible I can't believe I made it through with out having to be hospitalize!!
I'm really concerned about this year, what if it's worse??
Does anyone have suggestions on how they cope during the holidays, expecially Christmas eve, Christmas day,New Years, the whole week??
Does each one get worse for you or are they all different??
Are some years even alittle softer than others??
Please help with any advise, please??
Thank you my fantastic Angel Families!!
Together our journey's can be gentler!!
God Bless each and everyone of you who love and miss your precious Angel's!!
Thoughts & Prayers!!
Diane ~ Angel Katie Cassidy
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guest
Guest
Nov 03, 2008
5:48 AM
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This is a good topic, no one has asked me that in a really long time.
Was doing alittle better but now with halloween over and all the holidays beginning I'm sarting to get worse.
Does it get any better as time passes, will it always be this hard?
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Angela
Guest
Dec 04, 2008
3:58 PM
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Hi everyone.....
We should all ask how are we doing....more often.
It is good to talk, express in a safe manner how we are coping but only if you can deal with that subject ..
Remember everyday can be different , but what i do now is i try to find just one thing through out my day that has bought some laughter or a smile to my thoughts.
I find this helps.
I also remenis a lot.
None of us are mad just broken hearted, pining for our Angels.
But i truly believe they are still with us i really do .
Jeannie you are not alone, we are all here if you need a chat.Please no that.
Blessings to you all, your all great .xoxoxoxo
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